Sunday, May 24, 2015

I didn't know i was so interesting..... or stalk worthy!

    This year has been amazingly crazy! I've been out of touch and wow I'm amazed! Somehow I'm up 10,000 views. I have an idea of a few stalkers that may be contributing to that number, but I was shocked!

Well last time I blogged I had just gotten approved for foster care. Unfortunately, I could not be the mom these children needed while working full time and navigating this messed up system. Fostering was a very educational, regarding and difficult process! So I had to make the decision that was best for everyone and close down.

Since that happened I have been working 70-100 hours a week.... With the occasional 45 hour week for sanity. I've also focused on traveling more! Here are some pics from me and grannys last trip....

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

The 20's

I've finally figured out what the 20's are all about! As I was packing and unpacking my move it hit me! I kept seeing all these pictures of when I was younger. I kept thinking about how I got teased and bullied and make fun of. I kept thinking about how I was told I was not skinny enough, not smart enough, not cool enough well into and after high school even. The girl I see in these pictures ISN'T so fat, ISN'T so stupid, doesn't care if she's "cool" enough....she isn't a piggy or a fat cow. This girl just wants to love, play football, hang out with friends, travel, explore, learn, laugh, hang out with family, become a mom. This girl wants all the things I've been working on being. I have spent my 20's learning from my mistakes and repairing the damage from my childhood and adolesence. I didn't think I let what other people said get to me, but clearly I did. I'm excited that when people told me "I'd better enjoy high school because it's the best years of your life" I didn't listen!! As much struggle as I've gone through in this phase of life I've also been happier in the last 5 years than I ever remember. Now I really don't care what people think. I'm a good person help others, I love, I love my football, hang out with friends, travel, explore, learn, laugh, hang out with family and I'm becoming  a mom That's what matters to me!

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Ch ch ch change is scary and beautiful!

Big changes. I think maybe because the big 30 is approaching and although I've had a lot of experiences I'm still in a similar place? Or maybe because the last guy I dated (almost a year ago) was so wonderful and it still didn't go anywhere so I've given up on the idea of my happily ever after? Or maybe it's just the right time? Whatever it is I have decided I really need to put my big girl panties on and move forward with my life. I guess I just have been waiting to grow up until I meet someone? I didn't want to be a single mom, but I wanted to nanny until I was a mom. I have realized I'm being stupid!! Being a working full time single mom isn't ideal, but living in my parents basement working an unstable job till I'm 45 wouldn't be ideal either.

I've never been the kind to sit around and wait for things to happen. I've always worked really hard...hell I had 2 jobs at 12! But there are some things you can't make happen. There are things in life you can't control. So I have moved forward the best way that I can. I am getting a new place, I have an amazing job and I'm getting licensed to be a foster parent. This journey will be overwhelming and insane, but also amazing. I can't wait to see how much I learn and where this road will take me.

I was shocked to see I've had almost 1000 readers since my last post. Thank you to all those people that are so encouraging :)

PS: Football season is about to start...Go Hawks!!!

Monday, May 5, 2014

Unemployed Again...

Well it's been exactly a month today since I got laid off...only 3 days notice because they couldn't afford me. It's rough. I've been averaging 45 hours a week though, more than when I was working. This is great because it's allowed me to take my time and look for the right job instead of rushing into something. I've had some crazy hours, some even crazier interviews. I miss my kiddos, but I'm loving it though.

So I'm almost 30 no kids, no man, no job and living in my parents basement. I don't like that this is how it is, but also I think of why I'm here. It's because I'm not afraid to take risks. I'll do what I need to do to be happy. I nanny because I love it, not because it's stable. Hell I moved 1600 miles for a guy and a kid. Big risk. I tried opening a business and failed. Atleast I tried.

So now I'm back to square 1....trying to figure out what's next. Either way I'll keep you posted.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Breast Cancer Awareness!

I am totally in support of breast cancer awareness! My nana had breast cancer and a lot of people in my family have had other kinds of cancers. I think some of these stupid funny facebook games are fun just to keep it fresh in people's minds. It's easy to push things to the back of our minds and forget about it until it directly effects us. This no make up challenge has me a little annoyed though. I'm allergic to mascara and eye liner so you'll rarely see me wearing makeup and if you do it's for a special event. Not only that, but it will probably look like I've been crying for a week! Anyway I think it's ridiculous that it's a challenge to post a picture with no make up on. The funny part to me is that the people that cake on their make up don't seem to be doing it. Some people I almost don't recognize. Why can't people realize that they can be beautiful make up or not?

Friday, March 14, 2014

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Dating babble

How many profile views or messages is creepy? I mean  if you're going to send me a lot of messages there should be some content, but seriously give me time to respond!!! Patience is a virtue. Would the creepy level be different if he was more attractive? Can excessive messages be flattering?

What in the heck is the proper age difference? I do not have an answer for that one, but I will tell you this... I will not date someone old enough to be my dad, but I sure do get a lot of interest from people that are. lol!! No thanks.

There are preferences, but are they really deal breakers? Most of you know I'm an avid Seahawks fan!! Where do I draw the deal breaker line? I don't date anyone that's not a Hawks fan? I don't date a niners fan? No for me it's if someone can't respect my team. I will respect whatever team they like if they can respect mine.  Is it if they don't like the same movies as you? Should that be a big deal? Isn't that where compromise comes in to play? What if he's really attractive, but shorter than you? Or she's taller than you?

It's funny from time to time I'll get a guy that's asking me advice on his profile or on how to attract a specific kind of woman. Tonight I got 1 that thinks it's harder for guys to talk to girls because girls think all guys want is sex. It was actually kind of fun giving him lessons. lol!! Hopefully it will help him. Maybe I'll do a blog on that topic at some point.

So I applied to work at a couple dating sites because those who can't do teach and those who can't love match?